-remus- hold on tight, it's a wild ride

[kyndrick laurent]

&& this is how the heart learns...

It was late. Kyndrick still tasted the alcohol in the back of her throat and knew she was long over-due for a bathroom break. This had to be dealt with now though. She had to go to Pomfrey to figure out if she was pregnant. When Kyndrick was a third year, she used to stay up late on night and read up on the magical aspects of healing. She remembered looking through one of Pomfrey's books about pregnancies and how all it took was a simple charm to see if a woman was pregnant. She felt bad waking Madam Pomfrey up in the night that way, but she knew it was necessary. She had to know what was happening here. Remus deserved to know also. She knew he'd go with her to the hospital wing. He'd waited outside though, and Kyndrick was grateful for that. She didn't want him to be in the room when Pomfrey did her exam. Pomfrey would also then know that Kyndrick was drunk while she was pregnant and that wasn't a very happy sight.

So, her exam moved quickly. Pomfrey spent about 20 minutes afterward giving her a rough yelling at about the defects that can occur in a child from excessive drinking whilst pregnant. She told Kyndrie she had better change her ways then and there and should she wish to stay in school to finish out her year, she wouldn't be allowed to be wild anymore. Kyndrick agreed to everything, wearing that studious smile she once wore to get Pomfrey to lend her books that other third-years would never need to read. Kyndrick could charm her way out of war if she tried hard enough.

Now was the hard part. Kyndrick was definitely pregnant. She was almost a month along and she had to tell Remus that his worst nightmare was coming true. Pomfrey had dismissed herself and told Kyndrick she could talk to Remus for a few minutes and then she had to head off to bed. Kyndrick was also told that she had to meet with Professor Flitwick come morning to receive her punishment for the breaking of so many school rules. Kyndrick sat on the edge of the hospital wing bed and felt very small. She looked at how closed off she seemed. How could she tell Remus?

She tried to run it through her head. Yes, it's true, our lives are over. That just didn't seem fitting. Oh good, I was wrong. We got ourselves all in a fuss for no reason. By the way, I'm leaving in a few weeks and you'll never see me again. That didn't sound promising at all. She really didn't know how to go about all this. Normally, families were happy when they started. People would go on and on about how thrilled they were to welcome a child into the world. Kyndrick knew that if Remus didn't stay with her now, she'd have no one.

Kyndrick sighed and tried to get her mind off everything while she waited for Pomfrey to send Remus in. She found it so odd that she would have to come to Pomfrey for regular checkups and Remus had to go to Dumbledore for advice about the situation. Kyndrie wondered what advice Remus needed. Did teens really need advice about pregnancy from their headmasters? If so, why wasn't anyone concerned about whether or not Kyndrick cared what happened? Maybe everyone figured it was her fault so, she shouldn't be involved in what Remus decides to do about it. Kyndrie was smarter than that though. She wondered what else was going on there because she had a strange feeling there was more to this than anyone was telling her. The way Pomfrey acted when Kyndrick told her at first was angered but not to the point of fury. When she told Pomfrye who the father was, the woman looked as though she'd have some sort of heart-attack. It was like she'd told her that she was reproducing with some sort of fanged beast. Or worse, maybe Pomfrey was just disappointed because she knew Remus was such a well-mannered student.

She heard a creak and looked up to the door. Remus was probably coming in. Brace yourself Kyndrick, this is it..." She thought to herself sadly.

[Remus Lupin]

[[hope you don't mind, I skipped the dance post and went straight here.]]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

What. A. Mess.

Even Remus' eyes showed signs of his restless night. Dark shadows beneath, and they appeared to be drooping. Of course, Remus was used to restless nights. It was on the odd night that he would even get sleep in the first place. His hair was, as usual, carelessly messy, but with Remus' constant right hand's run throughs of it, it was possibly a bit worse. His legs were tired from their pacing. His head was tired of thinking. Everything about him seemed to be screaming for a good rest, but it wasn't like Remus paid much attention to those needs right now. He had bigger issues.

After his lengthly 'chat' with Dumbledore, the intensity of their current situation had almost doubled itself on his shoulders. If Kyndrick really was pregnant, she would have to know the truth, but Remus wasn't so sure if he was ready for that yet. Or if Kyndrick herself would be ready for such a bomb on her entire life, seeing as she was going to holding their child...Child? Thing was more like it. The..baby..could it even be normal? If it's father was a werewolf, how could it be full human? There had to be some sort of issues that would occur because of the fact that Remus ran off every month to change into a crazy wolf...

Suddenly, trying to pass his NEWTs this year didn't seem to be nearly as big of a deal as everything else in his life. But just then, the door swung open from the Hospital Wing, and Madam Pomfrey came up to him. He was allowed in. She was looking at him funny, and Remus didn't like it. She knew. She had to know. She was the one who had done the tests right? Couldn't she at least give him a hint? But then again, maybe she was just looking at him funny because she knew what he was. She was the one who gave him the Wolfsbane potion every month afterall. And besides, of all the idiot teenagers to get girls pregnant, no one would ever have expected quiet Remus Lupin. Or perhaps all this unexpected surprises were just making him paranoid.

Averting his eyes from the nurse, he stepped inside the Hospital Wing anxiously. Spotting Kyndrick on one of the beds, he made his way over to her. 'Kyndrick' He began nerviously. How could he phrase this without revealing the full length of his anxiety? 'So..what...are you pregnant?'

[kyndrick laurent]

[[that's totally fine with me, this thread just branches from there, lol]]

Kyndrick stared at Remus Lupin. That look on his face was killing her. How could he look so upset? She was upset but damn, Remus looked worse than she'd ever seen him before. She couldn't escape the words he spoke and she still didn't know how to respond. How should she say this? She had no idea how to kill someone's future that way. So, she decided to keep it real and simple. That was all she could do at this point.

"Okay, so, we're gonna need to figure a couple things out." Kyndrick sighed, avoiding up and answering the question. "Like, for starters, do you wanna be part of this kid's life?" There, that wasn't so bad now, was it? Plus, she'd asked a very important question in the process. Damn, Kyndrick was sly! Her subtlety had taught her how to say the things she couldn't say. "And, if for some reason you'll stick around, can you help me just figure all this out?" She asked, on the verge of tears now. She could feel the choke in the back of her throat and the start of a hangover churning in her stomach. Where was a glass of water when she needed one? She just realized she wouldn't be able to drink coffee some morning and she'd probably have to cancel any of her day's plans.

"Remus, I am so sorry. I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable and I know I'm asking a damn lot, but can you please stay?" She started crying and they weren't careful or delicate tears as she was known for. These were fierce, angry, pleading tears. These were the kind of tears that shook her whole body with the knowledge that she'd made a mistake and she didn't know how to fix it. She felt horrible for dragging Remus down with her. "I just need someone. I'm a pretty independent person but I'm so scared. I mean, this is a baby. Babies are delicate and they can't be yelled at and they break so easily. I can't do this alone, I know I can't." She cried and looked away from him, wishing she didn't look so needy and pathetic just then. So many years of power, of beauty, they all washed down the drain in that moment. She looked young, naive, and downright stupid.

She wiped the tears from her cheeks and wiped the moisture on her pants. The tears replaced and she didn't know how to get over her ridiculous excuse for a life. How would she ever make this right. Would Remus be willing to be there for her? Her heart ached secretly at the knowledge that she might be forced to face this all alone. How could she do that?

[Remus Lupin]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

He stared at her with wary, sad eyes. Even without answering his question, she had confirmed the answer he'd been dreading. So it was true. He'd fathered the first were-human spawn. Possibly the only werewolf in history to do so. He was so proud. Not. He gulped down bile as he tried to swallow back his fear. Fear for the unknown. Of how she would take the next news he was going to bring. He could always keep it a secret, like always...but she had a right to know. But how would she take it? Would she be angry with him for not telling her before the whole mishap? Never want to see him again. Well, he wouldn't blame her if she did. Remus had trouble looking in the mirror as it was. All he saw was the monster within.

Part of the kid's life? The very thought of Kyndrick being pregnant had him beyond terrified, and it had completely overtaken his entire mind. But, he'd never really thought of the after. Of how he could possibly be responsible for a kid out of this. How completely nervewrecking. This thought was even more troubling then the fact that Kyndrick was pregnant. A child to Remus Lupin's name? Remus Lupin the sixteen year old werewolf? He didn't know how to be father. His eyes widened slightly. This was all happening too fast, and frankly, Remus wasn't so good under pressure. But the truth of the matter was, if Kyndrick Laurent was pregnant with his child, he knew he could never leave her. It wasn't even an option that processed in his mind. 'Yes. Of course I do' He said earnestly.

And she seemed so..sad all of a sudden when she spoke again. He'd never seen her like this. Besides when he'd first told him not many hours ago. She had to be as frightened as he was. Perhaps more since she was the one holding the kid not him. But she didn't even know the rest of their problems yet. Beneath all of his worries, his heart went out to her, and he couldn't help but move a little closer so as to sit beside her on the bed. He placed an arm around her and hugged her close to him. 'I'll help.' He offered, attempting to comfort her.

'I'll stay as long as you need me' He promised quietly. Her words spooked him though, knowing that their baby might not be so delicate and breakable with a werewolf father. There probably would never be a good time to break the news though. It wasn't something you could throw into a casual conversation like "I just got a new dog". "I'm a werewolf" probably wouldn't get the same reaction. Werewolves were feared. Disowned and outcasts in the wizarding world. 'It's just that...you might not want me to stay if you knew the complete truth' He murmured almost inaudibly in a voice so low only she could hear. Not that he needed to really. Besides the two teenagers and their secrets, the hospital wing was empty.

[kyndrick laurent]

Kyndrick felt a wave of relief as he said he'd be part of the baby's life. She took a long breath. She heard him out. The bit about truth took her a little off-guard. What did Remus Lupin have to hide? She didn't even care at this point. She was just so grateful that someone would help her through this. "Trust me, I've kept a lot of secrets through my life and I've come to realize that a lot of them don't even matter. Is there even such thing as a 'complete truth' when everyone lies all the time anyway? Unless you've got like a third leg, I don't care Remus." She murmured with humor that didn't bother showing on her face.

"Thank you. Thank you for being here. I mean, this will sound awful, but for all the guys I could have made this same mistake with, I'm grateful it was with you." She felt that tinge in the back of her throat. She knew the words sounded bad, but it was only the truth. "Had this not happened, I think I still would have liked to be with you. Don't get me wrong Remus, but you're a pretty cool guy. You seem a little too hard on yourself though. Hell, getting me pregnant doesn't make you a monster. It just makes you yet another teen who makes a mistake." Kyndrick smiled at him. She had no idea the real reason he'd called himself a monster, but that was beside the point. She loved his arm around her, it was comforting, it made her feel far less alone in the world.

"I hate to bring this up now, but what is your family like? I mean, are your parents going to kill you? My dad's all corporate and he's a muggle so, I don't know if I'm going to be telling him any time soon." Kyndrick admitted thinking of the look on her dad's face. Her dad loved her, he just hated magic. Since Kyndrie's mom died of a rare and magical disease, her dad had not been keen on sending her out into that magical world. She wondered what Remus had to go home to. Did he have both parents? Would they kill when they learned of his mistake? Would they be supportive? Would they hate Kyndrick?

[Remus Lupin]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

Remus nodded, and he let out a small grimace appear on his face at her words. She didn't think it would matter? Really? Ha. That was a good one. Sure she might think that Remus didn't have anything that important to hide, but they all did. Remus was that quiet prefect boy. Sure, he hung out with troublemakers, but he always seemed to be innocent enough. Of course, those people probably didn't follow his scedule. They followed what Remus wanted them to believe. That he was just an ordinary sixteen year old boy. What they didn't know was that Remus also happened to transform into a werewolf every full moon. And now what with getting Kyndrick pregnant, he could hardly be classified as even remotely innocent.

Wait a second. When did she become the one doing the comforting? She was the pregnant one. He ought to be comforting her and not the other way around. Besides, he was the one who had to explain the real meaning behind being a monster here. He didn't know what to say to her. How to explain what he really was. There were no books for this sort of thing. No "How-to-Tell-Your-Pregnant-Girlfriend-That-You're-A-Werewolf-For-Dumbies". They didn't make that sort of thing. And what Remus was really afraid of was her reaction. The only thing that would be worse then her getting furious with him, was her getting scared of him. He didn't think he could handle that sort of thing. This was why he had never told very many people. He didn't want to be feared. Not in that sense anyway. Not if he was just going to walk down a corridor and have all the eyes averted because they were afraid he would sporatically transform into a werewolf and eat them. Maybe...maybe he didn't have to tell her now.

Forcing a small half-smile, he spoke again. 'It's nothing. Don't worry about it. And, even if this sounds bad. I'm kind of glad your the one to hold my kid too' He said, changing the topic on her so as to not have to continue on his previous path of telling her the truth. He tilted his head to her, his half-smile still semi on his lips. Ah, the parents. Well yes, his parents probably would want to kill him. Not that they'd ever try to though. He had always had a feeling that despite what his parents said of accepting his 'problem' they were actually afraid of him. Of what he really was. Things always got a little weird when he'd come home in the summer time, and around the time of his monthlies, they became even more awkward. But he prefered to lie to himself and just say that his family was...quiet and not afraid.

'My family probably won't like it at first, but well, they're just going to have to deal with it now. I mean, what other choice do they have?' He said with a mid-shrug. He really didn't know what his parents would do if they found out about this. Disown him? No. He crossed that thought out of his mind, and returned the subject on her. 'What about your mom?' He asked her, seeing as she'd only mention her father's reaction.

[kyndrick laurent]

Kyndrick couldn't help but offer a half-laugh. "Oh wow, your parents will hate me, won't they? It's alright, I wouldn't blame them." She didn't mind this cynical approach. It gave her something to expect so as to soften that blow. She sighed, not even really knowing how her father would react. He'd probably yell for a while. He'd then call up her aunt or someone and see if they had any advice. Then, her dad would want to meet Remus. Hell, Kyndrick's dad would want to meet all the Lupins and then he'd have them all fly out to their home in France and he'd make them feel very awkward. He'd probably yell at Remus a bit and try to be in denial that it really was Kyndrie's fault. Kyndrick laughed, she had her father painted out so clearly it was ridiculous. Yes, she'd wait to tell him for sure.

And then Remus's words hit her. Her mother? "I wish my mom could get mad at me." She murmured looking down at her hands in her lap. She'd never felt the absence of her mother so clearly. "I mean, if she was here, she'd yell at me and then start piling on advice. She'd do anything to help because that's how she was." She said it aloud, realizing how much did remember from her youth. "My mom's dead. She has been since I was a kid." She sighed. She couldn't say it in such a sad way though. Some people said things like that with such sorrow. It would be as if they were asking for sadness or something. Kyndrick had dealt with her mum's death young and had come to accept it. She had a father who loved her, even if he had a busy life and hated magic. That was one thing Kyndrick appreciated. Her father may have thrown money at her and pushed her away magically, but he did love his daughter. Kyndrick was not neglected despite having one parent.

"Don't say sorry or feel bad about it though. I hate it when people do. I mean, my mom died when I was a little kid and I love her and I remember her, but it's not as if I can remain upset about it all my life. It's just something you come to accept. My father loves me, he just hates magic. Hey, getting pregnant requires no magic at all so, my father might be thrilled about this, right?" Kyndrick joked more lightly. The mood needed it right then. "I hope you're used to muggle things because he'll want to meet you and he'll sit aroudn praying you're not overly magical." Kyndrie laughed, she knew her father much too well.

[Remus Lupin]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

'Yeah. But I would. No one in their right mind could hate you Kyndrick' He replied with a small smile. He couldn't help but allow a slight twitch of his lips stopping a grin as he pictured his father's face if he were to send him a letter telling them about fathering a child. His father's eyes would probably bulge out of his skull, and his mother would faint. No doubt they would act as if it was the end of the world or something. They probably never expected him to be able to have a family. Hey...was this what he was getting? A family...that was a different way to think of their situation, and his mind wandered sideways to picture him and Kyndrick walking down a sunny pathway pulling a baby stroller with huge smiles on their face...But no. That wasn't even remotely how this was going to work out. Not if she knew the truth.

His thoughts were cut short as he internally scolded himself for chickening out on telling her when she next spoke. Her mother was dead? Wow. Nice one Remus. You just had to bring that up didn't you? Idiot boy. He opened his mouth to apologize but she stopped him when she told him not to. Instead he gave her a slight sqeeze and watched her as she spoke. Well if he didn't already feel like crap for bringing this problem on them, this definitely added a little extra. Sure, Remus might have felt a little awkward and like he didn't fit in with his parents, but at least he had both of them.

Her next comment about pregnancy not needing magic allowed a small chuckle escape his lips. Hoping to lighten the mood a bit from the gloomy topic it had been before, he replied with a slight grin. 'Oh yeah. This is much better news then showing him magic. He's going to be so relieved' He said sarcastically. Meeting her father? How, completely intimidating. From Kyndrick's talk, he sounded pretty tough. That was definitely going to be fun.

[kyndrick laurent]

Kyndrick smiled at Remus a little more openly. "As a matter of fact, my father happens to be a huge fan of children. This will be a blessing as far as he's concerned." She offered feeling a little better. It sounded like Remus's family was a little tough from the way he spoke of them. Kyndrick knew her dad was a softy on the inside. Just because he hated magic didn't mean he was a bad person. Kyndrick actually had to laugh on the inside at the thought of all this. Her dad would expect something like this from her. Since her family also happened to be very wealthy in the muggle world, she's also have the pleasure of running about getting into the entire merchandise aspect of having a baby. She couldn't wait to find out the gender and start buying baby clothes. Kyndrick's mind was already turning. Little did Remus know, Kyndrick wanted all the same things. She could do for a happy little family. They could lead a quiet life filled with nothing but happiness. At least, Kyndrick would try to.

Kyndrick turned to look Remus in the eyes. "We can do this, you know? I mean, as long as we're together, this child can become something amazing Remus. That sounds horrifically cheesy, but I think this might just work out." Her tone was nothing but reassuring. She was calming down a lot and realized how tired she really was. The alcohol was almost completely done affecting her system and she knew she definitely needed to vomit. She would hold off though, she didn't want Remus to deal with anything else that night. Poor guy looked like he needed a very long sleep. The night wasn't exactly pausing for their drama.

Kyndrie couldn't help but let her mind wander around all the bright sides to this dark situation. She might not make a good mother, but she'd try. She knew she was very capable of loving others and being compassionate and affectionate. This baby would have a great life. Between she and Remus, they'd also be raising a genius too. That made Kyndrick smile. Not to mention, both of them were pretty good looking. This baby would be so beautiful, so popular. They were setting this kid up for a great life. She smiled. "This kid's going to be amazing in the long run." She rested her head on Remus's shoulder, loving the feel of his arm around her, the warmth off his body. This wasn't so hard. Kyndrick was already half-way in love with Remus. Life wasn't over due to this one small error.

[Remus Lupin]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

Remus grinned slightly at her. Ha. Funny girl. She thought her father would think their love child to be a blessing? Well, he wouldn't scold her for trying to think positive. Afterall, she knew her father better then he did, considering he didn't know her father at all. And, well he had enough to worry about without adding a posible encounter with Kyndrick's dad to his list. Perhaps he would do good with just going with her words for now, and then wait till he was alone to bring his thoughts back. He knew if he thought too much about anything now, his head would no doubt explode from exhaustion. Brains were only meant to take in so much information at a time, and Remus' was about an inch from overdrive.

Turning to face her, her words echoed in his head. He could practically feel the intensity radiating from them. He wanted her words to be true. Wanted to be reasured by whatever newfound positive thinking that had struck Kyndrick. 'I really hope your right' He said trying to hide his doubt as his eyes flickering away from hers. He didn't feel so honest right now, and it wasn't a good feeling. He wanted to tell her the truth, he did. But other more promanent emotions and thoughts kept getting in the way of his conscience. Like, the fact that he was actually liking Kyndrick more then he'd planned too. Well screw plans, and whoever created them. It wasn't like anyone ever followed them in the first place. Getting drunk and impregnating a girl was never in Remus' plans, and where was he now?

But she was smiling now, and he couldn't find it in his heart to break it to her anymore. Not when she seemed to be so perfectly content thinking about the glass half full. Even if Remus was stuck looking at all the dark issues, he didn't need to bring his gloom to her too. Maybe... in the morning. When Kyndrick was rested, and he'd attempted to sleep. He turned his head to her, just as she rested her's on his shoulder. He half-smiled at the closeness. 'Are you tired?' He asked her curiously, though he thought he knew the answer already. 'Did you want me to leave so you can sleep?'

[kyndrick laurent]

Kyndrick laughed. "Tired, me? Never." She smiled. "Want to walk with me? I've got to head up to the Ravenclaw Tower. Pomfrey won't be pleased if I fall asleep in her hospital wing." Kyndrie said, remembering the woman's face as she'd talked to Kyndrick earlier. The less of Pomfrey she saw, the better. It didn't seem like the woman was so thrilled with the seventh year in the moment.

Kyndrick could feel that ever so subtle tension in Remus, the gloom was still there and she knew it. She reached up a hand and placed her palm on his cheek. She looked at him, head still on his shoulder. "Try not to worry. I know that's what you'll do. You'll wait until I'm gone back to the Ravenclaw Commonroom and then you'll be up all night either killing yourself over this, or just plain worrying. Nothing is ever as bad as you think. Plus, worrying won't change what happened. It's gonna be okay." Her tone was comforting, as she tried to soothe what she knew he was feeling. She let that half-content little smile rest on her lips. It would be okay. Kyndrick had been telling people just such news for years, but they never quite managed to believe her. The sun would still rise come morning and the moon would still hang overhead in the coming nights. She wished she could stay with him. Maybe Remus needed someone there for him more than anything else.

"Walk with me?" She asked now, standing up and holding out a hand to him. She felt stronger somehow. Perhaps it was knowing that he wouldn't leave her to deal with this alone. Kyndrick hated being alone. It was something she'd never quite learn to do right. There was always someone willing to stay with her. She wanted that someone to be Remus now.

[Remus Lupin]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

Remus allowed a hint of a grin twitch along his lips at her words. Ah, he was glad he hadn't had to see Madame Pomphrey's face when Kyndrick had broken the news, and request. The old lady was probably ecstatic alright about their little problem, especially since she knew all about Remus' little problem. Note the heavy sarcasm. Remus wondered vagily what his face had looked like when Kyndrick had told him. It was hard to believe it hadn't even been that long ago that he'd walked in on her and Kavic getting cozy on the couch. Each moment of this night seemed to be taking an eternity to pass. Strange enough, sitting here in the hospital wing with Kyndrick was the only part that seemed to be going at a normal pace. Perhaps his nerves were going down a bit. One could only hope. Remus was sure he'd never felt so anxious in his entire life.

Her next words caught him off guard. How did she know that? That he'd be dropping her off to her dorm, and not returning to his? Maybe Remus was a little predictable. Even he himself could predict something about himself which would more often then not, happen. He knew already that he would have a better chance trying to find a pocka-dotted zebra then to sleep tonight for instance. He'd probably end up pacing through the school with so much commotion on his mind that night. It wasn't like he could just go back to the common room. Although..it would probably be empty. Everyone 15 and older were most likely out in the forest still, drunk out of their minds without a care in the world. Lucky ducks don't know how good they have it.

He shrugged in response, grinning. He couldn't control his worries. They just came. But for now, in front of Kyndrick, well she didn't need to have all that on her mind. So, he spoke in a sure, and smooth voice. As smooth as he could in the given circumstances. Hey, he'd been putting a front of what he was for eleven years now. It couldn't be that hard to do to Kyndrick Laurent could it? 'You're right. It'll all turn out for the better. Who knows..maybe this kid will be a blessing. With your killer charm, and my amazing looks, I think we've basically set this kid up nicely.' He said tilting his head to the side as he said this. Like his looks were just that obvious. Ha.

'But for now...don't worry about me ok? We've got enough on our plates if you've got a little Lupin on the way.' He said, standing up slowly. Was it working? He hoped she didn't see through him. Little Lupin. It sounded strange on his lips. To refer to this... with his last name. 'So to the Ravenclaw Tower we go.' He said, reaching out for her hand.[/font]

[kyndrick laurent]

Kyndrick had to laugh at that. Little Lupin? Wow, she really was carrying a little Lupin. She smiled at the sound of it. What if she became Kyndrick Carmilla Lupin? It would be so different. Yet, it sounded right in the back of her mind. She took his hand and stood up. She stumbled forward a little when she got to her feet and realized she was very close to him. A little shiver ran through her body. What was that? She didn't get nerves upon contact, she'd been in far too much contact with others to have that out of place shiver. She looked up into his eyes and held them for a moment in silence.

"I'm going to worry about you, you know." She murmured. It sounded like a secret between the two. "I'm going to care where you wander off to and what you do to ease the insanity." Her face was very serious about it, but not a harsh seriousness. No, Kyndrick also had something else about her expression. It was that same look when she'd grab Skye's arm before the girl fell off the side of a cliff or when her dad was home drunk or sick. She knew how to worry, she knew how to care, she knew how to be the one to help those she loved. She merely didn't love as often as she'd wished.

She didn't know what had possessed her to do it, but she stood up on her tip-toes ever so carefully to reach his height. She moved forward slowly and then kissed him with a gentle sort of caress. She didn't even know if it was a real kiss. She merely knew that was where she wanted to be. Then, she pulled away and looked up at him. "You know, to ease the worrying, maybe I shouldn't go back to Ravenclaw Tower. Want to stay with me tonight?" She asked, completely honest. Who knew what the night still had to offer. Kyndrick knew she wouldn't sleep for a long time though. If their night held romance or just a decent conversation, maybe it was all for the best. Part of her mind begged him to stay with her. "C'mon, you can pick our night's location." She offered with an air of mystery to her. She wouldn't let on anything in her mind. She only wanted to be with him. "It's just you, me, and little Lupin." She laughed slightly. Come with me. Let's go. She begged from her own mind. She wanted to ease that worried crease she knew would form as soon as he was away from her.

[Remus Lupin]

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

Care? About him? Why would she do that. Remus looked back at her, searching for the reason in her eyes. It was hard to believe that anyone should be worried about him. Remus couldn't imagine it. He only saw a monster. He was a monster. Something shameful. She only cares now, because she doesn't know The annoyingly persistant voice in the back of his mind reminded him. Oh how he wished he could shut himself up already. It wasn't something people thought all the time. But Remus sure did dream of it enough. To get out of his head. Escape the insanity just for a little while. Wouldn't that be nice? But no. Remus wasn't allowed to have nice. So why should he be allowed to have Kyndrick? 'You shouldn't' He murmured as he stared down at her with his troublesome eyes. When their lips connected, he felt...a spark. Fireworks? What was his stomach trying to imply here?

Subconsiciously, his arms had wrapped themselves around her, and when they broke apart, he didn't know what to think anymore. It would just be so much easier not to at all. And she made a fairly good offer aswell. They didn't have to part ways now. They could stay together? It was tempting. Remus didn't always do what he wanted, and rather, what he thought was better for others. He wanted to stay with Kyndrick. He didn't wish to wander the corridors of Hogwarts like some lone psycopath. Maybe a night away from that would be good for his health? But..what about Kyndrick's health? Would getting even closer to Kyndrick be good for her? When in the end, he'd still be a monster? A secret-keeping, terrifying creature who only thought about himself.

'Kyndrick..I..' He began, averting his eyes. Why was it so hard to turn her down? Was it because he was turning down something that he wanted aswell? Or that he was just to weak to do what he didn't want to anymore? 'Alright' He agreed. It was just one night right? Or what was left of it. It wouldn't be that harmful. And he could do what he wanted every once in a while couldn't he? Ignoring the snotty comments he recieved from the smart part of himself, he took Kyndrick's hand again, and turned to leave.

'Where can we go without getting caught out of bed in the middle of the night?' He wondered outloud. At this point, he turned his head to look at her expectantly. Of course, hanging out with the Marauders had it's ups. Remus knew of plenty of places. 'Secret passageway? Library? Outside? Back to the forest party? They're probably missing their host. Offended that I stole her away' He said with a playful wink. 'I know a way to Hogsmeade if you'd like. Perhaps we could even pitch a tent at the lake.' He said, naming off random ideas.

[kyndrick laurent]

Kyndrick's face lit up. He was going with her. The night suddenly felt young. He'd kissed her back. Kyndrick knew there was more than just a baby between them. There would always be more. "Ugh, I think I'm right done with parties. They'll live without me." She winked. She couldn't drink anymore and she could dance around with just anyone either. She had to now learn to art of commitment. She wanted to be with Remus and this was where their story would truly begin. It was just a night, just an ordinary night in an ordinary school with ordinary magic and ordinary mistakes in the making.

"How about the lake? I love the water. We'll just go over to the clearing by the forest where we won't get caught." Kyndrie murmured. She'd had many a moment in that clearing before. Okay, so she'd used it to go skinny dipping with multiple people of all genders. That was just Kyn for you.She also loved the stars. She was such an odd girl. She loved the stars but hated being alone in the dark. Pitching a tent by the lake, had Remus done this before?

She took his hand and her face lit up with a second wind of energy. "This will be fun." She whispered in a half mysterious, half excited tone. Kyndrick was used to living in the fast lane. This was just one of the first times she'd done so with someone like Remus. She felt a distant flicker in the back of her mind, she was meant to be here, to be doing this, wasn't she? This moment fit into her life's greater plan.[

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